i don't think i'm gonna be getting any sleep tonight. i should have been writing all this week but i've been so busy, getting closer to erika, worrying about grades, worrying about work, worrying about coming up with $2300 to go on the band trip to LA and mexico and disneyland.
i do wanna go, but i was only willing to work for that kind of money so i could go with erika, becase she's the one that really wanted me to go. but now that doesn't matter. erika doesn't think we're working out. she kinda smacked me in the face with it, no intentionally or anything but she just doesn't think she's being fair to me. well she wasn't being fair to me, she still has feelings for her ex-boyfriend. the boyfriend that almost everyday i hear about how much of an asshole he was and how much of a selfish childish jerk he is. i think it's because he was her first, you can't help but feel eternally connected to someone you share something so huge with. i imagine it's a kind of connection i desperately want but i'm no where near ready for.
i do have a lot of love to give. i think i have a lot of love i need to give, but despite all that for once i held back on throwing my heart around. i was taking my sweet time with erika, and things were great. i'm glad she brought this up before i did get too attatched though, i appreciate that. but still, i was a attatched to her a little bit, so it still stings. i just hope it won't sting for too long.
i'm guessing i'll stay up all night thinking about things, somehow reassure myself, get up early and head to work so i can mess up a ton of prices and orders because of the lack of sleep and all the kids coming to see the free matinee, then i'll see her there and we'll share a moment eyes locked. it will be brief. it will be awkward. it will have a deep significance, but then it will be over and she'll go into the theatre and i'll spend the rest of the day trying not to think about her and at one point, far into the night, i will and i'll fall asleep just to wake up and follow the same meaningless school routine that happens every monday through friday. i'll tell ashley, she'll try to comfort me. but i won't need it. oh i'll be greatful for it, but by then i'll be fine and erika will become another one of my good friends.
perhaps someday the 'break' she proposed will end and we'll be together again. but i know that she was just saying that to lighten the blow, so i'm not expecting it, i'm not looking forward to it, i'm not counting on it. i'm just being realistic and as always i stay strong with my belief that whatever happens will happen, and i'll handle whatever this random yet beautiful bundle of stuff that is life throws at me as it comes.
i feel better now. thanks for being my outlet once again, annonymous mass that is the internet
we'll see what happens, k?
whew, fun weekend!
thursday: right after school, mom picked my up and we headed straight to edmonton. not a lot happened except for me not getting much sleep (guess i slept too much in the car)
friday: i woke up early and headed to west ed. mall to get gifts, one was a birthday gift for krysta and the other was an 'i'm sorry for not seeing you over the summer like i promised' present for kelsey. lisa told me this little story featuring krysta (which you'll never know mwahahahaha...) and as a gag i got her a pair of joe boxer panties. no not because i wanted to see her in them for the last time! i have a girlfriend who i worship and she has a boyfriend herself. we're just close friends with the same sense of humor! for kelsey i got her an american eagle purse (cus i know she loves it there) and inside i hid something better: a little stuffed turtle (cus she dies for turtles) they both loved their gifts as i'm sure you guessed (i like to make gifts count) so after i was mobbed by a lot of people (i had no idea that many people missed me) i walked to whyte ave with kat and my new friend amira so i could get a hair cut and buy some blue dye. amira is so adorable, she's so shy but so crazy too. i love it. after my hair cut we walked back to the skool and eventually we broke off from amira before i even realised it. so kat and i met with sarah and hopped on a few buses to get to the football game.
once we got there i was greeted by a slightly drunk krysta. she had done a little pre-game drinking with lisa and tessa. my band-buddy mary and amira met up with us again and we all watched the game together in a tight group cus it was fuckin freeeeeeeeezing!!! eventually krysta and tessa and lisa took off to see people across the feild and after a while kat and sarah did too. so it was a bit colder for a while, but then krysta came back crying because some bitch pushed her down a hill and she landed on her thumb and either broke it or really really hurt it badly. i told her to go get it checked by the first aid people on hand for football injuries. the caoch of our team said the game was more important and just reluctantly gave her a little bit of ice. so i was pissed off already and i tried to get krysta to go to a nearby hospital but she refused to go until her boyfriend (who's on the team) saw her. be he felt like being an asshole and totally neglected her. all he said was to get her to go to a hospital. jerk... anyways after the game kat's mom pcked her up and then amira's mom picked up mary, amira and i and we all zipped off to amira's to watch weird science. i love that movie. i love anything to do with the 80's. after movie-watching, i got a ride back to my sister's house and i fell right asleep.
saturday: in the morning i woke up and my sister, suzie, dyed my hair bright blue. it's awesome!!! hehehe... then i TRIED to make plans with stewart but he wasn't home so i went over to owen's house and chilled there for a couple of hours before i walked over to eric's for the night. at eric's we caught up and he got me this chinese garfield book. it's awesome!! then we ate pizza and watched romy and michelle's highschool reunion. weird movie. we weren't quite done for the night though, so we walked over and picked up lindsay and 'the others' to watch. i'd seen it before so i saw all the hidden stuff on it and the rest of them were scared shitless throughout. when the movie finally ended we walked lindsay home and went to bed.
sunday: got up early and i got picked up by my mom to get some food at costco and the italian centre store. thenshe got lost on the way out of the city but eventually we got on the road and i pretty much just listened to music and stared out the window for 5 hours straight. pretty boring. but as soon as i got home i called my sweetie and she came over right away. in fact she's here now so i'm gonna go
tata
just got off work. i spent the last 20 minutes re-hashing some pages on the site, for example: the calendar. today was a good day. woke up very tired, but ready for the day (a rarity) and then in art i did an awesome job on the fox i'm sketching. after that i finished the rewriting in a fairy tale (it's on the skool page already) and then music came and we had this amazing drummer, troy, give us all MAJOR lessons on our kit technique. now he is a valuable guy to keep in touch with for an aspiring drummer. i learned so much it's not even funny. from basic stick holding technique to tiny quick tricks. neat stuff. in between out double music, i spent all lunch with erika in the music room all alone. it was nice, because i hardly get her all to myself. the lunch hour was over too soon though, i would've stayed in that lunch block forever if i could.
after lunch it was more drum instruction that put all four of us "percussionists" to shame. next up was chem., and i was so juiced up for the drummer that it went by too quickly to bring me down at all. after skool i walked to dustin's house and we chilled until it was time to go to work together. work was easy again, kind of rushed being a tuesday and all. jessica kept trying to take over my jobs, she's a bit of a control freak. once we clocked out, i checked out the poster room and got a galaxy quest poster, an angela's ashes poster and a mod squad poster. pretty awesome. i plan to get many many many more in the future. mother came and picked me up, and here i am.
it's late though, so i'm gonna go to bed right away.
XoXoX
i'm sick... it's all that erika's fault too! lol, j/k. well it is her fault, but it was waaaaay worth it. mmmmm.. i saw her again yesterday, we went to a movie with a bunch of other people. her friend aimee came too, to judge me as boyfriend material or not. (i passed btw). we saw ice age. i love that movie. erika started crying a little right at the end. she's so cute.
so then after the movie and after everyone but me and dustin had gone, we worked an hour cleaning at the theatre. it's really easy working there, i mean nothing is hard. after the hour, i walked to ashley's ouse and on the way i met up with kurtis, kyle, mark, and ryley, all covered in army fatigues and bush-camo face paint. the said they decided to get all painted up to roast some marshmallows. then after i got ashley and we were walking to the theatre, they all got out and jumped me, while ashley's parents were watching i think. i'm sure that looked really good to them, thinking that it was a date with ashley in the first place, i mean a bunch of amry fatigue guys jump out and just maul me then jump back in the car and speed away... it musta been a little strange. anyways, we saw swimfan. god that girl is scary. i'd already decided i would never cheat on anyone, but now i'm never even talking to new girls from the southern states. *cringes* so after the movie i walked her home and then met up with dust at the theatre and we walked to his house where i watched power rangers the movie (it was awesome!!!) then me and dust watched the new He-Man and the Masters of the Universe!!! and after the the Super friends!!!!!!! (the both suck more protions of ass than i've seen in my entire life... and i seen a lotta ass!) after all that crap watching, we just fell asleep.
in the morning i biked back home and then i had some lunch which was pretty darn good. eventually i made it to the computer where i now reside. i think i'm gonna go up to my room and do homework and call my erika up. so yah, i'll go do that.
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well i's so tired i can hardly keep my eyes open, but i have to go to dinner tonight at the rushdy's house. jody (my ex-roomate/current teacher) is gonna be there too. *yawn*
i felt bad last night too, erika was over and i was so tired i almost fell asleep twice. so therefore i must have been pretty boring at times too. but we had some fun. lets say she sure can kiss. her brother forgot to kick her up too, so her dad had to come and she stayed over another hour. we kinda watched wayne's world and we totally connected. i guess we'll see what happens.
so today i had to give up going out to the woods and blowing stuff up because of this dinner party thing. oh well, it'll be fun. i hope...
i'm not making that much sense right now, i need to take a nap. i talk later....
*yawn* i got home and all of the sudden i was sooooooooooo tired. i've just been asleep for the past hour. before that i showed some jerk on the bus good. during the ride home he was throwin cookie chunks at me and after like 7 tries he hits me and the back of the bus start's giggling, so i'm like "hey, cock-knocker, lemme ask you a question." and he kinda got confused and asked "what?" so while like the whole bus was listening i asked him "do you feel a bit better now about your lack of penis?" and everyone, not just the back, starts cracking up. after i ignore him for a while he decides to throw a peice of pencil at me. it taps me in the leg and he's like "YEAH direct hit" but everyone else just kinda looks at him and ignores it. meanwhile i'm laughing my ass off in my head. i think i ruined his day and made mine all at the same time.
but i didn't really need that to make my day, it was good anyways.
well, it's almost dinner time and it's almost buffy time, so i'll fulfill two bodily needs in one go. tata
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but so very wrong............
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! check it out, trust me
*sings* gonads and strife, gonads and strife, gonads and strife...
don't i feel like an idiot now! yeesh, last night i had plans to go to a movie with ashley, but i had to go to this feast (religious stuff, don't ask unless you really want to know) and i couldn't call her intil like 8:15 (an hour before the movie started) which is kinda short notice to finalize plans. so she thought i wasn't going to be calling at all and therefore wasn't ready to go at all. so after talking for like 2 hours on the phone she said i should come to a movie with her and her friend mihaela(i doubt i spelt that right) at 1.
... so i set my alarm clock for 12 just in case i'm not up by then. all the construction and pavement prep-work outside wakes me up (again) at like 10:45 and i'm still super tired from staying up til 3 in the morning, so i figure i'll go back to sleep and the alarm clock will wake me up...... so i wake up on my own and i'm thinking 'god i hate those construction workers' when i check the clock and it says 12:52. i set the alarm clock for 12 midnight, not 12 noon. what a dumbass.. so now i feel like a total heel. go me. that's a great way to start off a day.
anyways, i figured i'd read the rest of 'of mice and men' before i got up, but i only read 3 chapters, so i've got a couple to go. i had a bagel with mixed berry cream cheese for breakfast, and then i went out to buy some black dress pants for work tomorrow. then i got dropped back home and now i'm here all by my lonesome. *tear* i should probably finish my homework now, i gotta write a paragraph about myself that shows insight into my character. yay... them some chemistry nomenclature, yippeee!
blog you later, bye
*yawn* still tired... woke up at 10.45. you see what the evils of skool can do to a man>?!?!?! it's inhumane i say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i'm gonna try and recreate the prices at the Fort Theatre to see if i have the down:
Slush: $3.00
Bottled Water: $2.50
Small Bars: $1.50
Large Bars: $3.00
Small Licorice (twiz 'n' nibs): $2.50
Large Licorice (gummies 'n' sours): $3.00
Kids Corn: $2.00
Small Corn: $2.75
Medium Corn: $3.75
Large Corn: $4.50
Kids Pop: $2.00
Small Pop: $2.25
Medium Pop: $2.75
Large Pop: $3.00
Small Combo: $5.00
Medium Combo: $6.50
Large Combo: $7.50
k, let's see how i did... YAY only one mistake!! i'm gettin good at this. the twizzlers and nibs are $2.75 not $2.50. kick-assness. now i'll try making myself up some orders:
Medium Pop, a bag of Gummie Bears and a Large Popcorn: $11.25
Small Combo, Oh Henry and a bag of Nibs: $9.25
Medium Popcorn, bag of Sour Kids, bag of Nibs, Small Combo and a box of Reeces Peices: $16.00
ok now i'll add without guessing prices. and the verdict is: the first one is $10.25, second one's right, and so's the third. yay for me! it's not perfect but i'm not doing too bad. i'll definitely get the hang of it.
well i'm gonna go get ready some more. bubye
ahhhhhhhhh... feels so good to have the site all up and running again. i'll start a new layout whenever i have the time, but that's not now so forget about it.
well let's see. not a whole lot has happened. the girl who was living with us in edmonton while she finished her degree (jody) is now my english and social teacher at comp., i'm taking art which is pretty fun, i about to start this face assignment where i recreate the other half of someone's face, tomorrow i have a job interview at a local theatre (i think it'll go well if i memorize the prices [dustin is helping me out]), making new friends and seeing old ones is so easy here even though there's so many jerks at comp., and the buses around here are a freaking pain in the ass.
i changed a few of the pages on the site, and i've got plans to add to the girls list. but anyways i've gotta practice the prices with dustin.
more to come XoXoX
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