i really don't like councillors. i mean i'm not a prejudiced by any means but there's just something about councillors! they're always in your face, people you don't know just being so caring it makes you sick. just because something bad happened in your life and you wanna cope with it by helping others doesn't mean you can just help without asking permission or joining someone's intervention or something. jeez.... the reason i'm ranting is because today we had to attend a councilling session to cope with being in such a powerful and emotional production (the play). a lovey dovey sharing period. no thnaks. sure the people in the play with me are great and i love them all to death but i'm not aboiut to spew my soul to them. it takes a lot more than a 'safe and trust-filled' room to get that close to me. and the councillor sat down right beside me!! so you know councillors, every third think she said she felt the need to rub my shoulder and pat my back (not in a creepy sick way, more of a comforting i'm-there-for-you way, but still) it was very uncomforting. *sigh*
ok i think i'm done. i gotta work tonight and i got enough homework to last me all night (a wreckless exaggeration but hey).
tata. kyl button!
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GO SEE DIE ANOTHER DAY!!!!!! RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T CARE IF IT'S NOT PLAYING RIGHT NOW, GO WAIT IN LINE OR SOMETHING!!!!!!!! IT'S THE BEST ONE YET!!!!!!!!!!!!
now i know it's not one of the classics and the sean connery will always be THE james bond, but it's freakin' awesome. the special effects are great, the storyline is a typical bond one, the bond girls are gorgeous, the direction is a fresh perspective, overall it's a great thrill ride. i'd go into more detail, but i don't wanna read anything for those that haven't seen it yet (but they will... oh yes....... they will....)
anyhoo, in other new the play went well and i'm very glad it's over. i'm behind in chemistry but i'll catch up over this week. we're starting "who's life is it anyway?" in english which should be tons of fun (not). it's ryley's birthday on wednesday and i think the rockers (me ryley mark john kurt kyle and ichiban) are doing something this weekend to commemorate it. probably a movie, pizza, cruising, possibly blowing something up... i dunno, but whatever it is i'm in.
other than that nothing terribly interesting is happening lately (because of the jet lag from the play). but i'll keep you posted and often too.
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yah that's pretty much it, i'm getting kicked off the computer before i can finish more tests but oh well. tata
ok so it's been 8 days since my last entry.... i'm horrible! i'm a failure! i'm worthless and weak!! i do nothing and i am nothing!!!!!!!!!!!! what am i gonna do with my life?????
I WANNA ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah, little reckless exaggeration there but meh. i should definitely post more often. and i have my excuses, but none of them are any good. so just be happy i'm posting at all right now!! yeesh what's wrong with you people???? leave me alone!!!!!!!!!! again: i kid. please don't leave me alone, it's so boring when i don't get comments. and i have to write new entries to get comments, i know that. meh i'm going around in circles so i'm just gonna drop the whole not posting thing and move on.
so yah, i've done a lot lately. well it doesn't seem like a lot at first, but on second thought, i realise i'm one busy dude. the play isn't ready yet (but opening night is thursday), i finished a clay sculpture in art (it's really cool! it's all norsey and mythological), my sisters visited for the weekend, me and ashley have done a lot lately too (it was leaked to the masses that me and ashley are together and now bethany won't leave me alone about it, lol. word seems to travel pretty quick around a high school), I'M DYING MY HAIR TOMORROW!!! BACK TO MY NATURAL HAIR COLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't worry i haven't gone crazy. i have to for the play. it seems blue hair isn't "serious" enough. ashley seems to want my normal hair back too, so maybe i'll keep it normal just for her. dunno yet, but i can see it happening.... though i will miss my beautiful azure lochs... *sniff* ahh well. no big.
ashley doesn't seem to be having much fun these days. i mean she is NOT enjoying this play at all. (neither is anyone else. corey, another cast member, waited like 3 hours watching the rest of us rehearse just to be forgoten by the director. and he's AWESOME at his part. yeesh) but yeah, i was talking like crazy about buffy and ashley snapped at me last night on the phone. it hurt a little, but she had a point. and i went into one of my silent spells.... i felt really bad, because ashley was telling me "i'm doing it again...... i'm saying things to push people away." and i told her she'd have to try a lot harder to get rid of me.... and things slowly got better after that. and the next morning, after i made a pancake breakfast, ashley called me up and we talked for like 5 hours. it was great! we watched simply irresistable on the phone with each other (it was on tv). well i enjoyed talking to her but it wasn't the same as her being there with me. *frown* but i'll see her tomorrow, i'm just gonna hafta learn that i can't be holding her tight 24/7.... *sigh*
one thing of great note is that ashley's writing a short story at the moment! and it's AMAZING!!! go check it out (what's written so far that is). it's right here.
well that's it for me, time to talk to ashley some more. tata XoXoX for mah button.
hee hee! pics pics pics!!! i just scanned a ton of pics cus i had nothing else to do. a bunch are in a new section i added to my pics and one has been added to the pics of me.
here's a couple to satisfy you before going to the pics section:
here's this year's school id card.
and here's ashley's school pic. purdy ain't she?
THAT'S ALL YOU GET!!!! unless you check the pics section... which i suggest you do.
tata XoXoX, button
ok, i have nothing to do for another half an hour so i thought i'd write this post. (because my posts have been few and far between lately)
i had a rough week... i just barely made it through without losing it. i really hate this play!! grrr.. the directors a real bitch. she's being soo unfair to ashley too. i think ashley should walk out on the play, whether it drops her drama mark or not. i don't like her being so stressed out. and as she said "it's dangerous when both you and i are stressed out at the same time." the play is just so draining, i really think it's an unhealthy experience. but i made the commitment and i'm gonna see it through to the end, but after that i'm not doing any more drama stuff with that teacher.
that's not the only reason my week was rough though, my parents aren't being very fair lately. my mom decides to do this school bake sale thing for me, though i never asked her. and i'm grateful and everything, don't get me wrong, but she asks me to make labels for each of the different baked goodies (with the name and the date and the ingredients and all those vitals) and i was being a bit of a smart-ass about it, but just joking around. once i finish the carrot cake labels i put one on each of the four cakes. on two of them i accidentally touch the plastic covering to the icing and my mom just freaks out!! she's like "i went to all that effort to make it look nice and now it's ruined!" and i was like it still looks great, no one will even notice. but then she really hurt my feelings: "maybe you would buy something like that but i wouldn't!" and i wanted to just scream at her, but instead i just finished the labels and screamed at her from the safety of my own brain. then i tried talking to ashley on msn but either my computer crashed or i "forgot" a few labels or something was keeping me from her and it was really pissing me off. so then i just went to bed at 9:30 and i felt a little better when i woke up. but i missed my bus by a few minutes and my stepdad wouldn't give me a ride. so i had to walk the long walk (well it sure seems long in the freezing wind and freshly piled up snow which is finding it's way into your shoes). that didn't put me in a very good mood for the day. usually the wait for the bus and the bus ride are my morning thinking periods. i think about all kinds of things and clear my head before the day really starts. i had no such chance while i was breaking new paths in the snow. lol, i'm such a whiner, huh?
i almost blew up in chemistry that day but i kept it under control and i made it through the play rehearsal, and i took ashley out to dinner at tony roma's. we both enjoyed our meals and talked and both of us just unwound. it was nice. but then when we went to wait for the bus it wouldn't come. we waited an hour (spread out over two bus stops cus the first one had too many people around) and it just wouldn't come. so finally we just walked to ashley's house, and then i saw her to the door and headed back up to abasand. once i got home i was freezing and super tired. i just flopped down and slept (after warming up with some hot chocolate).
so now today i slept in and me and ashley are gonna have another of our weekend movie binges. and i'm in such a good mood. i got food in my stomach, i've had a shower, i got culture club blaring and i'm gonna see ashley today! how could i be in a bad mood???
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sorry about the lack of postage, i've been too busy/tired/lazy to write anything lately.
but i can talk about how things are going between my and ashley. (as in very well) i can tell that she's very shy, and she's also very impossible, but i just love everything about her. she means the world to me. and i know she cares about me too. she told me to download naked by avril lavigne because the lyrics to that song are exactly how she feels about me. (so if you wanna know that, download the song.... creep) something really special is growing between us. and i'm loving every second.
i just can't stop thinking about her (i mean i always thought about her a lot, but this is like 24/7). there's a song that always reminds me of her too: 'you' by switch foot. i dunno if the lyrics are as perfect as ashley's naked song, but it just get's me thinking about her. lol, thinking about her more than the 24/7 i do already...
but yah, i gtg now anyways
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