word up homies. i's just chillin fresh with g-dawg and the posse.
who am i kidding, i'm doing homework.... and in 5 minutes i gotta run to catch the bus to work. yay for me. but today wasn't that bad of a day. at lunch i blew up ichi's car, and we got that stupid ritual dance assignment out of the way in drama. the only two things hanging over my head are my family in edmonton and this crappy social essay. but the essay will be done tomorrow and i'm sure that if i haven't heard anything by now, i'm not going to hear any bad news. so it's all good. and i gotta bounce.
we out, peace
i've had the weekend from hell. i haven't felt like this in a long time. i haven't been posting, because i've been worried about how reading my posts might make people feel, but i'm tired of censoring myself. here's my weekend:
thurs: about 70 grade 11 kids including me had gone to edmonton for a few days the day before (to do some tours of various post secondary institutions, you know: force us to think about our futures) but thursday we all got like 6 hours at WEM to shop and chill, and do whatever we want. i had tons of fun at west ed, and i was supposed to meet eric at some point, but we didn't connect before hand so we didn't know where the other was. then later there was pizza eating and rock 'n' roll listening.... to...
in the middle of the night though, i woke up feeling sick to my stomach, so i got up to go cool down in the washroom in case i had to spew. turns out i did (which i haven't done in like years) i felt better after stomach-wise, but i had major spins and a killer headache.
fri: those symptoms didn't let up the next day either. so the whole bus ride, i've got this huge headache, i'm totally dizzy, and i can't sleep it off because i don't trust anyone on that bus (potential face marking or dead-legs) and the prissy girls sitting behind me just wouldn't stop complaining about every little fucking thing. god, 6 hours of "this sucks" "i can't hear my movie" "the bathroom is gross" "god so and so is such a jerk" "blah blah freakin blah!" i was tempted to smack on of them as an example. but i made it through. that night when i was finally home, i find out that i've got a dangerously high fever and if it was still there in the morning i was going to the doctor's immediately. great news to go to sleep with. but i was too tred to complain and i just went to sleep.
sat: not much happened on saturday except for me being sick and lazing around the whole house. in the evening i went to help set up the lighting for this ba'hai presentation called naw ruz. it was alright, but i had to be all social and stuff, which i really wasn't in the mood for. so after i got fed up andtired i just walked home and went to bed (about 9:30-10:00)
sun: once again with the lazing and sickness (a little less severe though) but this time i find out that my mom is leaving immediately for edmonton to help my sister out with some troubles. troubles such as her fiancé going crazy, yelling and screaming at her, photocopying her diary, pushing her around, and threatening to run off with their baby. as in MY nephew. i don't know if i've ever felt so angry and shocked and scared in my life. i begging my mom to let me come with her to edmonton so that nothing happens to her or my sister. but she told me i had to stay here and concentrate on school.
like that's happening. there's still no word on what's going on, and i'm just barely keeping it together at work and at school. when i get home i just break down, and i can't concentrate on anything. i can't eat anything, i can't get any homework done. including this big important essay on the use of violence in the French Revolution and the rule of Napoleon that was due yesterday. all i have is a title i don't even like. my brain just isn't functioning at all. i'm just completely burnt out. two days after my little vacation/break thing too. i dunno, i need to go force down some dinner or something.
blog later
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